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Yea you read that right..took me years to update..so here is a repac on the missing years..stop hanging out with two friends..one was just nasty..toxic to be around with..one my fault entirely..got jobs..quit jobs..now doing my final master semester oh not to forget a few police cases..am the victim..
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i know its not  technically november yet but whose counting right??..okey so today i went photoging with suprise2 renee and mel..huummm 1 thing i need to tell her if you are hanging out with your gf..boys arents allowed?? like seriously while you are dating we are like the third and fourth wheel..hmmm..continuing n with my job search..nothing yet..hmm..uhh am so dead..hoping gonna get a job soon~~~
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okey so today..hmm tired very tired..done alot of walking..window shopping with mom..uhh aa also found out today that my lecturer at unitar got married..hmm..wow..congrats i do hope that she will be happy..ever since she got a boyfriend..she had change alot..correction now husband..i do hoe that she will change for the better..and i wish her hapiness..hm today a journalist from malaysia died in somalia..on a humanitarian mission i think..condolences to his family..to me his dead is not fair..i mean they go they not to do politicking but to help the people of somalia..the mission suppose to be until dec..serves them right..malaysia immedeatly pull the mission group..the group will return to malaysia by tomorrow..the poor men left two child, and  wife what more the poor men sons is not even 10 years old..
i felt pity for them..the media coverage..was in the prime time news..what strike me as funny ..some minister i think..the women minister ..or lady minister..say they will donate rm5000 for the kids education..yea like that going to cover the education..the kids had lost their father what more the source of income for the family..made me pity them even more..how ill they survive??..i do hope in my little heart of heart that the family will be okay..may god bless them..
my words today is NEVER TOOK FOR GRSNTED THINGS>>YOU NEVER KNEW WHEN IT YOUR TIME TO GO..
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only the second day of this looong diary..err well i hope haha..still keeping my mind positive..hmm nothing happen much today..go up..eat..clean house..bla2..the routine..still looking for a job..i do hope that i will get it soon..ohh on another note i realise that my mind id the blackst thing every..sometime it made me scared of the things that i kept thinking..uhh hope beyond hope that i will get a job soon..boredom..hmm uhh aa yea my words for today is..SMILED..haaa..which is funny cause i rarely smile my self..uhh nevermind..still trying to get happy and all that crap..but still i do hope that when i read this in the future ill be able to laugh out loud..and also i almost cringe at the spelling mistake i made in the eariler post..FYI..dont type so fast next time..uhh too lazy to change it..--!
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so i think it will be good to me to write on what happen to me here..since LJ and this page never gets a visitors..so i figure the cahnges are slim to none of someone reading this..so i dont have to make it private..what more it wont consume any space on my computer which is a plus..and not be safe somewhere on my computer..
so on to business..my words for today is THE PAST CANT HURT YOU>>IT CAN ONLY HURT YOU IF YOU LET IT..how true are the words?? only time will tell..but am hoping that it can be true to me..since i do have alot of pasts memories taht tend to do e more harm then good..hmmm..yes i think that all today see you tomorrow then..i do hope that when i read this in the future i will not find a spelling mistakes and all that kind hmm..
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have you guys ever got a job offer that you guys really like..for example you like drawing and you got a job to draw all day..but the pay s really lousy..that what happen to me..i really like writing and admire oprah alot..see i was offered a job as a journalist..i know i will not get bored with this job..i really like it..i want to do a job that i really like if i can but here the negative part of it..the pay is really lousy..i mean i have to pay various bills..transportation..car maintainable,..plus money to eat..and money to save up each months..you know i calculate already after deducting various bills that i have to pay i will be left with 380 every month..that money for food fuel and others necessities..what more i have to pay study loan also..uhh..a journalist job travel alot..i doubt that i can survive with that  much..aa also have to pay parking fees also..uhh did i mention that this job medical benefits also suck big time..i mean hello i am a girl yea..i need to buy cloths,makeup..and all that stuff uhh now would be a good time for me to be a men..i mean you guy have it so simple..i doubt the appearances fees for you guys is as much as the girls..not unlest you guys are super metro sexual ofcorse..
so you see my dilemma..but i really want this job..i may regret it for the rest of my life if i turn down this offer..so its logic vs int erst..pay vs passion..i mean i can very well survive in this world with passion alone,.i die from hunger..uhh damn,,,
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 so havent updates these site in ages again..huuu..final year of study finally..lots of things to do..let see what happen..family problem-half solve..studies-half way..been running around kota kinabalu..let see..hmm aparently the so called ron 95 petrol apparently waste to much petrol in my car..or is is because that i have increased my running around habbit??..hmm dont know..maybe..but cant be..my car is full-injection..which means it save fuel..but not on the new petrol..finally switch back to ron 97..which is more pricier..by 25 cent..i know its not much but i am still student..so do the math...
hmm what else oo..so hot currently in Malaysia..i think its the el-nino..or something close to that...oo and been picking up my pens lately..nothing much just a few something..something here and there..which to me is a huge improvement..considering that i have been having a writes block close to 10 years now..okey mybe less..but still its YEARS not just months..maybe ill post them here that is if i ever get around to do it..haha..yea..yea i know ranting again..
oo,..also have these individual presentation fews weeks ago..did so badly that my lecturer Sir Ozzy..he was speachless..i think he is thinking wow she is so bad...i just stay silent then poor girl..yepp poor girl me indeed still cant put it behind me...
aa also Malaysia have recorded it first death of AH!NI since half a year time...hmm i think that all..ill try to updates via weekly..also fill free to friend me..have a NICE DAY..
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so i havent updated this lj in ages..so let see what happen to me..yea i felt sick..hmm..family problem and such..plus my studies..and stuff..uh..right now on sem breaks..have like 10 assingment to finn..which i havent begun to do..uh i just hopw tomorrow i am in the mood to do it all..uhh..
so that all i guess..
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What is your least favorite day of the week? And your favorite?
well right now i hate everyday of the week..uh..everyday full of stuff to do cant even get some rest..so tired..huhuhu~~~
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so my result is out..and i fail one subject..my first ever failed subject in my uni years..so i was bummed and shock..uhh..now my hold plan for next year is down the drain..i plan 2 gad next year u see..now i dont know if i can manage that or not..since i have to resit the paper..and the subject..but i plan next week to ask if i can just resit the paper instead of taking the subject again..
but really i dont blame anyone but myself that i fail the paper..it was simple enough..i answers the exanm quite well consedering that i always never turn up for the classes and not turning up for the quizes big mistake on my part ..i know..and i am paying for my mistake right now..
note to self in the new semester i will try harder..to increase my cgpa..i dont want to play anymore or take thing for garnted..i mean i know so much that i am not an idiot..i mean look at me..two years at uni..until i fail one subject..consedering that my friends have failed much more earier..i know i sound cocky..wait i do sound cocky..i mean in the two yewars i never took my studies seriously but my result is somehow good..now i ask myself what will happen if i completly trown my self in my studies..okey now i am chalengging myself to get no c..only a and bs this new semester..i hope i can motivaed myself..no i will try..i will do it..yes i will do it..i owe it to myself ..for all the years that i have been slacking in my studies..yes..
okey enough ranting for this time..


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